Boredom. Taking over every single thing. I'm back from France, and consequently back to the real world which I loathe. My welcvome home gift was a ton of homework which I have to finish ine 3 days, and right now I feel simply inadequate. Seriously. And i hate myself for all my laziness, which is by the way biblical. This is why after going out tonight I'll study and finish the 3 chapters I was supposed to finish.

On the other hand, I feel bored with life in general. Nothing exciting happened in France. It was fine, but kind of the same old story which is contrary to the groundbreaking that I expected.

What I really need is a break, and when I say break I mean a break from life itself. I just want to put my things in a bag and hop on a plane to wherever in the world. A place where I know no one, and where no one knows me. Ofcourse without anyone from here having the ability to reach me even by phone. I don't know why I've grown so tired of everything. It seems kind of selfish.. But I'm tired. I'm tired of having to spend my days sitting on a chair and studying because "it's for my future". I'm too young to be stuck on a chair.. And the future? Seriously? Getting into university, sure. And then 3 more years on a chair. It just never ends does it?

Let's not talk about schoolwork anymore though. Let's talk about romance. Again, once more, SERIOUSLY? Why do I have to follow these stupid rules? 99% of the people (male in fact) that i know don't interest me at all in the romantic field. AT ALL. It's because they're so boring and cliche. It's probably a new disease taking over us all, the fear of doing something original, different, fascinatng. What really pisses me off though is the fact that the only people that I have an interest in are way off limits, for reasons that I can't control like *duh duh duh* age. The worst part? There's someone who really cares about me, and who's really interested in making us work, but there's a catch. I don't feel madly in love with him. And if I don't have that feeling, you know, when you simply can't stop thinking bout someone, it feels as if I'm fooling myself.

Here it was, 2 days on nagging in a journal entry.